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And yet again another boring day at the bank... I mean I shouldn't complain, I know that, but I can't help it. At least I only have an hour left then I get to go to the Annual FCA Benefit Auction and then to Buffalo Wild Wings with James, Anthony, and Heather, that'll make up for today.

Since graduating, I've learned, there isn't much good about Saturdays. I haven't gotten to sleep past 7 on a Saturday in.... months? Yeah, that sounds right. Tomorrow I get to be up at good ol' 6 o'clock. Gross gross gross. I like to wake up early, but I also don't like being told what to do, so I'm not willingly waking up that early!

Tomorrow is my cousin Seamus' birthday party at Grandmas, and I'm excited for that! James and I are driving to her house after work, and I'll get to see the majority of the family over there, so that'll be great! It'd be greater if I could just leave in the morning, but it'll still be all sorts of fun!

Anyway.... I don't have much else to type, I was just trying to blow time a bit. Have a good weekend.

<3Kyla

11022011

I've never been great at keeping up with a blog, I've been trying to... well... actually no, I haven't been trying at all. In fact, I completely forgot about this until about two weeks ago! I wouldn't mind posting on here more often, I'm better at keeping up with this than a notebook, plus I can do this while I'm at work!

It's been a hectic couple of months for me! Between not starting college, to losing a car, to various other happenings, it's just been crazy! Everything has came together great though!

Last weekend James and I took a drive out to Fairfax for the little Halloween party the little kids wanted to have, it was a pretty good time! We got in a leaf fight, the kids bobbed for apples, hung out, and just had an all around good time. It made me miss being able to go out there more! Everything is so much harder now that I'm working... but I suppose it's a part of growing up! Plus, I won't be working a job like this forever,in another few years I'll have a schedule better then a bankers! Teachers have it the best! The hardest, but the best!

And I'm at work, so I better get back to it! Have a good day everyone :)
<3 Kyla Ray

He is Jealous for Me.

"He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy."


Beautiful. What a beautiful song. It's one of those songs I could listen to for hours and never get tired of. Every time I hear it I can feel God's love pouring out on me.

I heard this song first back in the summer of 2009 at an IPCC teen camp, and was amazed by the lyrics. Every time I hear it I look back to that point in my life. I remember when I heard it God gave me a choice; I could listen and follow what He was telling me, or go the opposite way. ...I went the opposite way. Now that I look back at what God was so clearly telling me, I really understand that God wanted to protect me from temptation, from hurt, from everything He knew was about to be thrown at me like a fastball in a baseball game. But He still loves me. O how He loves us. O how He loved me. O how He loves me.


Now I sit here and listen to the song day after day. I sing along and can hardly begin to explain what God tells me every time I hear it. He makes it more and more clear He loves me. He makes it clear He's always loved me, and always will regardless of what I might do. Isn't that beautiful? His mercy and love are strong than anything we can possibly imagine. His love is a hurricane, His grace is an ocean.


"And I don't have time to maintain these regrets, when I think about, the way He loves us."


When I focus on God's love, I'm amazed and in awe. I want to drop everything and worship. I accept the fact that He loves me, and that there's nothing I can do to make Him love me more, and nothing I can do to make Him love me any less. What a beautiful savior.

It's time to surrender everything over to God.

Love you guys,
let me know if there's anything I can do to show you love or pray for you.
Kyla Ray

commited.

"If someone claims, "I know him well!" but doesn't keep his commandments, he's obviously a liar. His life doesn't match his words. But the one who keeps God's word is the person in whom we see God's mature love. This is the only way to be sure we're in God. Anyone who claims to be intimate with God ought to live the same kind of life Jesus lived." - 1 John 2:4-6

Really? Does God really mean that we only know Him well, and the only way to be intimate with God is to keep his commandments? There's no way! No one in any of the churches I've attended have ever lived like that, not even the pastor! Very few people in the Christian schools I've been around kept God's commands, in fact they hardly even went to church, but they said they had a great relationship with God... there's no way this is scriptural!
  
Isn't that how we like to think? We might not say it out loud, or write it down, but don't you see the truth behind that statement?

As I look at, and examine my life and ask, "Am I keeping His commandments, and living the life Jesus lived?" I can't seem to answer yes. There's thing after thing after thing keeping me from living as Jesus lived.

Attending Christian school for the past seven years I have a whole lot of head knowledge, but every bit of it is useless if I don't put it into action. Any Bible verse you've memorized, and catechism you've memorized, is worthless if your actions aren't catching up with it. Jesus is tired of lukewarm, dead Christians. He wants us to love like He loved, reach out like He did (as in go out to the people most hate and wouldn't want to be seen around), He wants us to walk like He walked. He's coming back for a pure bride, He's coming back for someone dedicated and desiring a relationship and desiring to live like Himself. Not a lukewarm, halfhearted, uncommitted follower.